January 2010
39 posts
its only been two days.
and so much shit has happened. i cant got on like i used to because i live somewhere else now. my brother is mega anal about his laptop as well. because god forbid i cut into his world of fucking warcraft time.
the first thing i want to write about is pie. because i know she is pretty much the only one who reads my blogs. and i want to tell of how i have been everything she has said to and about...
oh today was great.
i dont even know or remember how many days i have been back but im not going to count anyway. im talking to this girl. i cant remember if i posted ot or not -checks-.. -gets lazy-.. -assumes i have-.. im pretty sure i did at one point and time. but she is awesome to talk too. she made me pinkie swear about not swearing around her. but its all good. i should stop doing it so much anyways. people...
as it turns out.
apparently im grat at recording music. thats what i spent this day doing, i went with colton gary and devan to help out and now im the mta tech ha ha. its good because it gives me a sense of purpose you know? and even better i met this girl. well i met her a long long time ago. and we were texting in the sumer. then we stopped. but i was in class and she sat by me and asked if i was bob. i was...
day four?
i cant remember. i just woke up actually. did not mean to be sleeping. but i did. my dearest mother made me some food but i fell asleep. so when i woke i put it in the fridge for tomorrow. read alot of eyeshield 21 today. i like that series. i was way bummed when it ended last year. but i thought it deserved a second read. i lent my mother wallflower today. she reads about as fast as i do so she...
its the third day now.
went into salt lake ish to accompany colton as he met some girl he was texting. she was supposed to invite a friend for me to talk too but she did not. judging from the impression this girl gave us. i probably wouldnt have wanted to be around any of this girls friends in the first place. just one more dumb bitch who drinks too much. not really what im interesting in meeting. you know? that was...
day two.
i feel like my days are long as fuck right now! its only day two and i feel i have done so much! but really i havent ha ha. i need too see my dearest friend pie soon. she needs a phone >.> well im back for a long whole so we have time. and again. its only day two.
ps. yeah pie i liked the blog its always interesting to know about your own conditions and such. :D
just got back to utah.
things are going okay. its day one i cant say much yet. loads of people to see. lots to do. not enough time.
im scared.
this is it. my last few moments in california. god im i scared. im hoping, praying, pleading that this is not just a new mistake to add to the list. im goign to miss this place very much. really truly. the people. the weather. the places. goodbye california. i think ill write a song for you when im on the bus.
last time cheefin with thatchmaster-chief.
man it was an odd moment. not bad odd. good odd. we both knew it was the last time and we will not hang out for a very long time now. but were not mad or upset. because we know we will fuck shit up when he gets back to utah. ha ha ha.
if only.
you knew.
its pouring outside.
i love it. its been a while sense it rained this much. i dont mind it really. its calming. makes everyone stay inside. and sometimes thats just what everyone needs you know?
i check out of the SAE tomorrow. ill miss it terribly. but it was just one of those stepping stones in my life. i wish i had pictures to remember the place with. or california in general. i really need to get a camera..
wow.
there is really nothing to say about what just happened. because you will read it. and take some hidden meaning out of it. and turn it against me. all i ever get out of you is your hurt and im selfish. fuck this shit.
i hate writing things when i’m mad..
“whats the point in moanin? honey leave that for the ghosts.”
– foxy shazam
it was awesome.
even though it rained for most of the day we had a hell of a time! we had pretty much everything. vip passes and free food passes! what more could we ask for? no pretty lady’s i have to say. well there were a few but they were all Asian and i don’t think they spoke English ha ha ha. when i asked some of them if where they were standing was the line they just looked at me and got...
“i saw in your eyes that you hate the world..”
– killwhitneydead
going to universal with jeremy and memo today.
it will be grand. I’ve never been before. so it will be new for me. its raining. but its all good. i like the rain. maybe some pretty lady will need my jacket to hide from the cold? >.> ha ha you never know man you never know. for those of you that know me well your probably wondering if I’m going sober. indeed i am. you don’t go high to something you were invited to with a...
she says i lied.
bah!
kinda. but it had quit for quite some time. but you know what? this is the last week ill be spending with my best friend. and any of the friends that i met here in California. and its not really anyone’s business. if i choose to break a goal i made myself for a few last good times with good friends. then so be it. that’s between me and myself. so i see no problem enjoying my...
today was a good day.
watched my friends at school preform songs on second street (was a house [home room-ish] assignment. i don’t have a house class so i didn’t preform) but it was still really fun to see a different side of the people i see daily. talked and joked with people. made memories. talked with a friend over coffee and cigarettes. made jokes some more. laughed. and lived. nothing too special. but...
as time goes by.
everything is changing. and some things you dont want to happen. sometimes need to happen. she was my pillar of hope for a long time now. but i think its time to be realistic. i love you. and wont forget you. just like a promised all those years ago. but its time i moved on. maybe years from now. but thats years from now you know? no one could ever know where they will be in that time. so why...
the school of arts and enterprise.
or the SAE (say) as the students call it.
i wish i had some pictures for you but ill have to take some later. its pretty much THE most laid back charter/high school you could ever find. everyone is down to earth and there really isn’t that who “oh shit what clique do i belong in” garbage here. there are only a few hundred students (if that) and its not the biggest of campus but...
“They watch on, evil, incredibly stupid, enjoying my destruction. “poor...”
– john gardner, Grendel.
music playlists.
i try to listen to alot of them. its like taking a moment to appreceate something that means alot to that said person. and i often find the best songs there. ones with meaning. heart. and soul. and those are the songs one should love most.
i like it when.
i make someone smile. its just plain awesome. there is no other way to put it really. its like when a baby is born. even people that don’t like those little monsters are happy because of it. people like to smile even when they don’t like too. and when your the one making them smile its just awesome. and its hard NOT too do for me. even when i’m in some sort of trouble or mad at...
drugs.
wish i never had any. its like sex. once you’ve had it. your hooked. simple as that. can say i would have a whole different life if i never wanted to get high or something like that. no freakin wonder your mother tells you to stay away you know? its a good thing i learned to controll myself early on. ive seen and read about what it can do to people. and it shocks me what goes on in this...
good moment.
bob: BOO!
jeremy: AH!
bob: oh..
“and in that moment. i swear we were infinite.”
– the perks of being a wallflower
i am bob.
and by no other name will i want you to call me. it is my name. it is the name i have been known by for many many years. and im not going to change it just because you think it sounds ridiclous. many like my “real name” more. thats grand. and you may call me by that if you wish. pie would be mad if you did though. her and one other person are the only ones ,excluding family and...
blah.
